7 Periods Playing It Too Cool Keeps You From Being In A Real Relationship1 month ago
One of my favorite things about my current relationship is that I dont “re going to have to” pretend to be someone Im not. I dont have to play it cool, and if Im thinking something, I can justit.
I know that mayseem like standard relationship stuff to any logical human being, but for me, this is all HUGE.
You ensure, this is my first real relationship. Of course, I had plenty of those almost-relationships( I guess the kids are calling them situationships these days) that lasted for weeks or months, without us actually talking about whatit was and what we were doing.
But none of those thing really amounted to anything more, which partiallyhad to do with the fact that I didnt really want anything with most of those guys.
But another( much bigger) part of it had to do with my incessant required to the chill girl.
Basically, I was so obsessed with coming off like nothing fazedme oravoiding being vulnerable at all costs, I objective up pushing plenty of decent dudes away.
Its funny because, historically, being the shivering girl is supposed to be the most surefire style to get you the guy but, in reality, it usually ends up being what makes you lose him.
When you told him you didnt would like to speak about it
Honestly, there were lots of hours I reallywant to talk about what was bothering me.
Talking about what was on my mindbrought about real, human FEELINGS. Not to mention, I would have to say actual words out of my mouth in real-time, rather than simply sending perfectly curated text messages, drafted with the help of a million of my friends.
What if I aimed up saying something psycho ?! What if I told him I liked him, and he didnt feeling the same route? What if I CRIED?
But from personal experience, I can tell you, the only thing worse than talking about your impressions istalking about them.
Id endurethese ambiguous, undefined situationships forweeks sometimes months with no real conclusion as to what we were doing, all because I was too scared to sit there and have a real conversation.
Sure, I likely came off as super chill on the surface, but what it did to me mentally was anythingchill.
Eventually Id lose the guy because( shocker !) hedidnt want to sit around with person in a situationthats going nowhere, without ever discussing what we were actually doing.
When you told him you didnt am worried about something you really cared about so much
One time, Ihave to have the talk with a guy and it didnt go as planned. He asked, Really? This isnt working for you? I love things the way they are.
Instead of being honest and saying , nope, this isnt working for me at all. I actually hate this with a burning passion, I decided to play it cool and go with a new, more~ cold~ response: No, I just wanted to see where you were at. I dont actually care.
So, becauseI technically didnt care, we went ahead and continued to do the whole half-ass, virtually relationship thing that gave me no grounds to get upset when hed abruptly fall off the face of the Earth for a few days or hook up with another girl for a few more months.
Eventually, whatever was going on between us aimed because I obviouslycare. I cared about what he was doing a lot. And it just got to betoo hurtful.
But instead of ending things before it got to that phase, I waited and awaited, continuing to pretend like I didnt care until I reached my eventual breaking point.
In retrospect, I believe all I did by saying I dont care in that dialogue was lose his respect. I suddenly became someone he going to lose , no matter how he treated me.
When you tried to make him jealous
This was a go-to move of mine in college.
In order to get the attention of the guy whomIlike, Id make it abundantly clear that I was being pursued by plenty of guys whom Ilike.
But I wouldnt do this in a blatantly obvious route. No, to keep up my chill girl posture, Id do it by nonchalantly mentioning that so-and-so invited me to their frat formal or that Im going to my exs house for a party.
Essentially, I said things that stimulated itI had other options thatall my eggs werent in this one basket.
Let me tell you how this one panned out for me: In what was essentially the worst case scenario, they all me. They believed I had all these other options whom I enjoy being with, so they never took me seriously maybe rightfully so.
When you lied or exaggerated to construct yourself seem cooler
This is just an embarrassing and cringeworthy one that weve all done at some point.
Pretending to watch a demonstrate you dislike. Pretending to care about a athletic you couldnt care less about. Feigning you LOVE music you hate. Pretending to understand jokes you wouldnt get without the help of Google.
To a certain extent, doing this is natural. You want the person you like to like you back, so youre going to do whatever it takes to appear cool to them. But it becomes a problem when you stop being true to yourself.
Best case scenario: This scheme works. This guy buys that you really love the same horrible TV present as he does and loves youyou have such similar savor as him. But now, he loves you because of someone youre not.
The worst case scenario is obvious and more likely: He considers through your lies, and you look insecure and slightly pathetic( sorry, but its true ), when youhave just been honest from the get-go and gained his respect for being true to yourself.
When you rejected him one too many times
I was big on rejection back in my day.
You assure, I was never one of those people who had a really hard time saying no. No came naturally to me, when it came to boys I liked.
I would get afraid if someone were pursuing me, and as a weird, counterintuitive result, I would be mean to them, reject them or literally operate( that was one time) from my feelings for them.
Im not gonna lie: In the beginning, its a great style to get a boys attention. A little bit of playing hard to get and a little bit of a chase is funand arousing. But eventually, it gets old and exhausting. And the person youre rejecting understandably devotes up.
When you needed five shots to be vulnerable with him
This was another one of my go-to college moves.
If, for some godforsaken reason, I HAD to be honest with a boy about “whats going on” or about how I felt, my scheme was to get drunk and have a talk with him while I assured him out at night.
Needless to say, this was a terrible scheme. First and foremost, I could scarcely recollect these super important, heartfelt conversations I was supposed to be having.
Second, I was saying was coming off at all like I had planned because I was hammered.
Finally, I was proving to my partner( and as a result, to myself) that I wasnt capable of having these important dialogues sober.
When you refused to tell him how you really felt
All of these pretty much boil down to one thing: I was afraid.
I was so afraid of telling anyone how I actually felt or what I really wanted out of our relationship( whatever it was) that I would just avoid the whole telling him how I feel part of the relationship entirely.
Yes, technically, I did successfully manage to avoid putting myself out there to be rejected.
But I wouldnt counting that as a win by any means.
Youre patently not going to stop all these habits at once, and hey, maybe some of them are working for you. But from my personal experience, these things are surefire relationship repellant.
This isnt to say I abruptly became this perfect human by the time I satisfied my boyfriend and quit all my weird, chill girl stuff for good he definitely did his part in helping transgress some of my walls down. But the fact of the matter is, relationships are all about being yourself and being vulnerable. And a healthy relationship will never happen for you if you cant accept that.